a state of inebriation — 

no alcohol, no drugs,

serotonin that floods

through your body

until it stops.

 

quiet world, loud thoughts — 

medication that doesn’t turn it off.

a roller coaster high 

until you fall, the pain so sharp

you’ll feel it all. 

 

norepinephrine — 

a middle name,

anxiety the friend you talk to

everyday.

 

empathy unreal — 

as if you can somehow feel 

the heartbeat of 

every person you love

(and don’t).

 

a state of inebriation — 

no alcohol, no drugs,

emotions you fear

you’ll never be cured from.